"Careful Now"

"Oh maybe you should make a list for me, of everything important in this world... In a note of urgency, cause I don't know how to feel..."

I'm not unhappy. That much I know for sure. I got out of a short-lived, no-passion relationship so I'm single again. I like that. I started doing Atkins and in less than two weeks I've lost 8 pounds. I like that. I have a real social life with good friends and fun. I like that. I have a good job in a shit economy. I like that. I'm moving to a new city in a new gorgeous apartment in a week. I like that.

Something is still missing. Someone is still missing, I should say. I have my shit figured out, so where's that person I get to share it with? I'm going to be patient, of course. No more blind dates or online dating or looking in my past for my future. My future isn't going to be found in a yesterday.

I'm going to be more careful with myself, with my heart. But I will never hold myself back on hope.