conversions

chopped 6 inches off my hair last night (happy), did a serious vegetarian pantry conversion shopping run with dad (who is also switching to save his life), got a flu shot at work yesterday (i've been paying for it with how shitty i feel), decided i'm not going to revisit moving until next year. short little anti-climactic blurb at the end there but that's because it's not a big deal. the point of this blog was initially to track my time between "now" and "then" when i do actually move. but in the last five days life has changed (of course) and i'm in a better place than i've been in a long time and i know what i need to do now. my health needs to come before anything else. and this way i get to save more, be with my family for the holidays, travel more, help fix up the house, maybe get my own apartment if i stay here that long, get my tattoos, figure out a career path i actually like and fix my teeth. how is that a loss?

the title of the blog still applies for a lot of reasons. my heart has been through a dozen miniature earthquakes over the last two years and i do need to grow up. now instead of running from everything i'm stopping and turning around.